weekend soundtrack

"I started to ache, when I started to think of you. Wondered how long it would take before I step into something new."
-Soundtrack to Our Movie (Mae)

Friday December 15, 2006

I’m spending the weekend in Tahoe with a few of my friends and my roommate. We’re staying at a timeshare in Reno. It’s pretty nice ‘cept the city is filled with old white people and the casinos are old and decrepit. The only thing to do out here is gamble, in which I can’t for another month, and eat buffets. Just thinking about it makes me sick.

I just found out two of my friends got together, it’s pretty cute but it’s more of a convenient relationship I think. They were good friends before and about 30% of the time they’re attracted to each other. Some people ask why? They ask why not?

There are no regrets which is good because I feel like all of my relationships are filled with nothing but regret. Especially this last one. I got in deeper than I’d ever expected to and now I have to pull out entirely.

"when it's over, that's the time you're in my heart again. when it's over...is it really over?"
-When it's Over (Sugar Ray)

I want to fall in love someday, don’t really know whether it will happen or if I’ll end up in a convenient relationship. I really don’t want that, companionate love is not what I seek.

“you make me wanna smoke a cigarette, you make me wanna be someone else. you make me wanna be somebody you would leave and I could forget.”
-Cigarette (Graham Colton Band)

We went skiing today. I got hit in the back around the kidney area with a snowboard. Now there is a big bruise and a lot of pain. I hope it’s not internally bleeding. I hate that I suck at skiing/snowboarding, and it discourages me when I can't bring myself to tough it out. Damn it, it's just the story of my life, I run away before I can see the end result.

There are so many things I want to do, as the years tack on I wonder when I’ll finally get to LIVE. I want to get a job, and I want to settle down and fall in love. I want to party, and I want to dance the night away. I want to travel the world and make a difference.

“But everything I plan just slips right through my hand and I don’t know why…”
-I Don't Know Why (Ben Kweller)

Saturday December 16, 2006

There was no internet connection at the timeshare so I had to just put my entries in word first. Today was spent chilling around the area. It started snowing so the rough edges of the city were covered with a thick blanket of white snow. It was beautiful.

"I'm dreaming of a white christmas..."
-White Christmas (Bing Crosby)

For breakfast we cooked pancakes and dinner was pasta with chicken alfredo. All in all it was a very nice and relaxing experience. Anna, pH and myself stayed up late into the night and chatted about politics, education, relationships, sex, and anything else we could think of. It was a great bonding experience because we hardly ever get to just hang out. The cold weather kept us all inside so we played Settlers of Canton. It is like Civilization only you play against other people, you trade resources, build settlements, armies, roads, and cities.


Sunday December 17, 2006

We left Reno early and headed back to Berkeley. I packed up my stuff and got ready to go home. A month in LA, I think that will be quite enjoyable. plus when I come back up I'll be 21. Ready to hit up all the bars and clubs! Anyway...it's getting late and I have to get back to LA tomorrow.