quick sand

it's hard when you realize you have no one you can trust. in life you can only depend on yourself, everyone else is just using you as a step to get what they want. i'm sinking hard and fast in a deep pit unable to pick myself up right now. at some point everyone wants to be rescued but you realize you can only save yourself.

cigarette

CSI:NY

"You don't love me at all, but don't think that it bothers me at all.
You're a bad-hearted boy-trap, babydoll, but you're...
You're so damn hot."
-OK Go

The new show to watch...CSI:NY because Carmine Giovinazzo is oh so hot. Now if only the rest of the guys in this world would even remotely look this hot then I'd be set.

fast food nation

for those of you who have not seen it, watch it.
for those of you who have, i hope you haven't ate another cow since.

i'm never gonna eat meat ever again under my own volition. Blarrgh!

commit this to memory

i think it's really been awhile since i've reflected back on who i've become. i think it's really scary and i hope that soon enough i'll be able to change that. i've become a monster that i don't even recognize anymore. somebody save me from myself. somebody save the world from me.

"I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal"
-Animal I Have Become (Three Days Grace)

allergies

Another reason to not scratch your eyes even if they itch!